When I think of Valentine's Day---> I think it is the worsest day of the year for me because I can never find a Valentine or Just I can not have a relationship with a boy that I really do like and likes me back. Everytime I fall in love with a boy ---> yeah i become really CLUMSY and can not help it ---> it is just that they either what to sleep with me or they just want to mess with my friend, enemy, or a family member to make it ALL WORSE. Everytime I fall in love with someone, they either are having or living a DOUBLED LIFE or they have issues that brings them back to a time in their life that makes them go crazy or makes them depressing.
I can relate to these occasions:
When I was in the 8th grade, I use to go with this guy who treated me really well and never ever put me in harms way. He was a cool guy that you can tell anything to. He just had my back no matter what ---> until FEBRUARY 14th. He told me that I was a girl who was really good 2 him and said things that made people around me until he had said we needed to be friends. In front of him I did not want to cry and told I was cool with it all (KNOWN DAMN WELL I WAS FURIOUS). But he knew that I wanted to go on the rampage and kill him and go after her. I wanted to ask him "why did he do that to me", but I walked away. UNTIL, the next day I saw him kissing this girl named SHAQUANA...........OOOPSSSSS.......I did not want to put he out on the spot like that but I JUST DID ------> OH WELL !!!!!!!
Yep! he was kissing her and I got really angry and upset with it.
NOW, when I was going with MALIK, I am still trying to figure out what I saw in him. But I am still trying to figure that out. I WILL GET OVER IT!!!!!!! But when he was messin with Shaquana ---> I thought that to get back at my ex was to go with MALIK and SHAQUANA MAD !!!! Over that period of time i go to know MALIK for who he really is over the time I was going with him -----> SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I HAD DUMPED HIM.
NOW, when it comes to TED he is a good guy for me. He really does care about me and I care about him. BUT sometimes I think we could NEVER REALLY BE !! Because we live in different areas or sections of the city (NORTH PHILLY FOR ME AND WEST PHILLY FOR HIM). Also it is a hard time trying to go over each other houses and hook up to go out to do anything.
Everytime I go into the VALENTINE'S DAY TRADITION and the day itself itself just makes me go really CRAZY.
EVERYTIME I FALL IN LOVE WITH SOME 1, It is just a waste of TIME for me.
I know other people can relate to this.
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